I haven’t talked much about my physical progress lately. And what amazing progress it is.
I’ve improved more in the last three months than in the 14 preceding months. I never use my cane in the house during the day. Even when I step down into the garage to feed Harley. And that step down almost kept me from taking this house. It was so difficult.
In fact, when I first moved in I was unsteady and had no stamina. The simple act of standing and talking to someone was not really possible for me. Walking was always a challenge. I could only walk a short distance before I needed to sit and regain my strength.
Now, I walk everywhere. I haven’t used the wheelchair for two months. I walk without my brace in the evening. I can almost lift my right knee to a 45 degree angle. I know these are little things to you, things you take for granted, but it’s the world to me.
Funny how our desires change in life. Most of my life I thought about getting rich. That meant driving nice cars, owning a beautiful home with a swimming pool. And of course having plenty of money.
“More money than I could spend.” That was my motto.
It’s different now. Stroke Tom really changed my focus. I was forced to trust and rely on God in a way I never dreamed possible before.
I can’t say I don’t worry; it’s human to worry. But I was once little more than a drooling lump. Confined to a bed. Dependent on other people to feed me, dress me, get me things…care for me.
Oh, as the year went on those other people were mostly Diane. Without her I wouldn’t be here. She wheeled me from our bed to the bathroom for months. She helped me shower, she got my clothes out of the closet and then helped me dress. She cooked, cleaned and catered to my needs.
Diane provided the physical as well as emotional help I needed to recover. A stroke survivor I met at a swimming class once told me how lucky I am. His wife left him after his stroke. The raw emotion of dealing with half the man he used to be was more than she could handle. Not to mention all the extra work. He’s now a marathon bike racer.
I am fairly independent these days. I still can’t carry much which makes it hard to get groceries from the car. But I can drive to the store and buy groceries. I can cook a meal and help clean up. I can walk across uneven ground and uphill (slowly).
Of course, the washer and dryer are still baffling. All those buttons and dials…but then, I’ve never been very technical.
Oh, I almost forgot the biggest thing of all. I have sooo much energy. (This I attribute to my Magic Elixir and Pro Argi9 Plus.) I’m actually writing this at 4:00 in the morning. I couldn’t sleep.
I’m still rich beyond my wildest dreams. I just measure my wealth by a new yardstick. And who’s to say it’s not better.
We’re here on the earth to grow and learn attributes that bring us closer to God. To widen our scope and extend our reach. To reflect the virtues that bring goodness and joy to our life and the lives of others.
March 28, 2009, was my second birthing. I ascended into the womb of God’s Grace and I came back again into this world. I came back to continue my work. To do what I can to promote Peace and Love among all humankind. To expand and extend the Portals of Possibility. To learn, grow and share.
I’m more at ease in this second manifestation. I’m more patient and definitely more secure in my absolute trust and faith in God’s Ever Abiding Love.
I know in the depths of my essence that God opens the doors, provides the means, makes safe the path and guides my way. Nothing happens to me that is not for my highest good.
These things are not just a belief. They are my reality. My Faith.
No matter how dark it gets. Nor how impossible and desperate conditions may seem. God is with me always. Opening doors, providing means, making safe and guiding my every move.
What could I possibly have to worry about? I’ve had a Brain Stroke Miracle Healing.
Sir Abdu’l-Baha (Persian Mystic Knighted by Queen Victoria for his work in Palestine during WWI) said it better than I ever could.
I say unto you that anyone who will rise up in the Cause of God at this time shall be filled with the spirit of God, and that He will send His hosts from heaven to help you, and that nothing shall be impossible to you if you have faith. And now I give you a commandment which shall be for a covenant between you and Me — that ye have faith; that your faith be steadfast as a rock that no storms can move, that nothing can disturb, and that it endure through all things even to the end; even should ye hear that your Lord has been crucified, be not shaken in your faith, for I am with you always, whether living or dead, I am with you to the end. As ye have faith so shall your powers and blessings be. This is the balance — this is the balance — this is the balance.
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